When it all started to make sense…..

"When the world says, "Give up,"Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

~Author Unknown

Photography All rights Kelly Ilebode Titled "Busy Bee"

Today. Kind of.  This journey of figuring it all out I mean.  You know, what I want to be when I grow up.  When you speak to people they tell you to do what you love; follow your passion.   Blah, blah, blah.  That’s great and all, but I do have a family to feed and a mortgage to pay.   Following my passion, so far, hasn’t been paying too well. 

But, I am ahead of the game I guess.  I know what I like to do.  There are three things actually and it has only taken me about 40 years to figure it out.

1. I like to write.  I like to write poetry, speeches, short stories, long stories (currently finishing up a long one, novel in length), I even like to write proposals, grants, letters, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera
2. I like to lecture and speak in front of people.  (I like this a lot) It could be as a lectionary at my church, reading a poem, giving directions, it doesn’t matter.  My voice is loud and people like to hear it.
3. I love photography – mostly nature, prayer beads and animals, (weird combo I know)

 To completely let go of the fear and transition to complete surrender is weird.  I feel as if I have been asleep my whole life, watching as if in a dream; each dream bringing me closer and closer to this awakening.

 Ok, still not making money, the difference is, I no longer care.  Why?  Because I have wasted so much time and money on figuring out how to make money that I figured maybe I have it all backwards.

When I quit my professional job to stay home with the kids eleven years ago, I have done so many things through the years for the all mighty dollar (not placed in any particular order).

• Sold Gift Baskets
• Staged Homes
• De-Cluttered Homes
• Tutored
• Catered
• Opened a gift store

 And I was good at all of it…..but I wasn’t passionate about it.  I did all of these things to make money and I still wasn’t happy.

 So here I am talking to you, (and right now there are not a lot of you who read my blog), but you know what the difference is….I am smiling and getting ready to copy and paste, and that makes me happy!  I will figure out the money later.

Peace be with you!

Kelly